Random Thoughts During The COVID-19 Pandemic

Remote work is possible; we just are so used to going to the office that we didn't see it as feasible until we needed to work from home. We realized that we didn't have to deal with the horrendous traffic/commute because for the most part, people can work remotely. To that point...Working from home means …

“I am so loved.”

A lot has happened over the course of a month or so. I won't get into detail, but it involves me going into medication withdrawal as well as other major life events. Lately, my moods have been stuck in a cycle of anxiety-sadness-anger. Suicidal thoughts have returned, as well as my relapse into self-harm (though …

The Obligatory New Year Blog Post: 2021

So, 2020 has been a bitch, hasn't it? I've lost so much during the span of 12 months that The Best Friend congratulated me on staying sane. The past year has been one of the hardest for most of us. Our world turned upside down as we weren't able to do the things we enjoy, …

Our journeys

I'll be turning 28 soon, and I hate it. I hate the thought of getting closer to 30 years old, mostly because I never thought I'd get this far (thanks, suicidal thoughts). Honestly, I don't want to turn 30, but I'm really, really trying to have a positive mindset here. So, I've decided to flip …

Christmas anxiety is here!

It has successfully replaced my typical, everyday anxiety. Yay! Christmas is supposed to be this time when you're chill and having fun, right? Instead, I'm looking at my budget, trying to add it all up, thinking about gifts, scheduling when to buy them... I'm in a total tizzy right now, is what I'm trying to …

On living life to the fullest

I work from home, which means I never leave the house anymore. My hobbies are solitary: reading, writing, makeup, and photography, which I recently got into. I only ever leave the house when I go on dates with my boyfriend, and even then, sometimes I just have him bring food to my house and hang …

I wish emotional connections were optional

Lately I've been having a recurring fantasy: a life with no emotional connections. You'll never be disappointed because you expect nothing from everyone. You can focus on external matters, like your job. You'll never have to worry about messy things like romantic and platonic relationships. No more worrying about people leaving. I've always been hesitant …

What this birthday means to me

I just turned 26. My boyfriend likes to say how I'm closer to 30 than 20, and that pisses me off. For the past few years, I always freaked out about my birthday because I was afraid of the future. I was scared of growing old without having anything to show for it. See, I …

Birth-yay!

My birthday is less than a month away, and I'm stoked! My boyfriend certainly plays a big part in why I look forward to this year's birthday. Our first date happened to fall on my birthday last year. He picked me up and took me out for a dinner date at The Frazzled Cook in …

I quit smoking last year, and I’m surprisingly happy about it

I have been a smoker since 2009. The past 3 years, I smoked a pack or two a day. Smoking brought me relief from stress, it made me feel better after a big meal, and it was perfect with a cup of coffee. When I was unemployed, I smoked a couple of packs a day …