…and I’m so not proud of it. 😦
Gelo is well aware of this – we’ve been best friends for like 7 years so he’s very familiar with how clingy I can be. I send messages nonstop, especially when drunk. I get sad when he doesn’t reply. I miss him a lot because for some reason we only meet like once a quarter.
Now imagine those feelings multiplied by ten when it comes to Tony, my boyfriend.
I text him all the time even when I’m not saying anything of substance. When he can’t reply right away, I worry that he’s getting bored with me. When we say goodbye after spending the entire day together, I miss him the moment he turns away.
It’s gross and disgusting and why am I like this?!
I think it’s probably my trust issues at work – out of sight, out of mind, or something like that. I have abandonment issues so I always, always need reassurance that he’s not going anywhere.
I know this is not exactly healthy – after all, everyone needs space, even me. So I’ll be working on this. Like Tony said, we are all works in progress – this just happens to be one of my (many) areas of improvement. ❤