Help, everything feels like pointless bullshit. – Me, to The Best Friend
Thank god I have someone like him to listen to my crap. We’ve been best friends for 7+ years so he’s used to my existential dilemmas, but that doesn’t mean he knows how to respond.
And to be honest, I dunno how someone could respond in a way that would make me feel better. Life is a series of meaningless bullshit and nothing we do will ever matter because we will all die anyway, so what’s the point? Might as well get it over with.
I’m so exhausted of trying to remain positive. Depression is a bitch to fight and I know I have no choice but to get through it, but some days it feels like I’ll never get better. Some days it feels like I just need to give in, just so my brain will finally be quiet.
I’m also sick of having to be taken care of. I want to move out, but my mom won’t let me until I’m better, which is probably for the best. Still, I want to try to take care of myself, which I feel I can only do if I’m thrown into the deep end and go live alone.